This is my millionth blog, and I actually haven't blogged in a while, but I figured it's a good way to 1) organize my thoughts, 2) ramble to myself instead of rambling to other people, and 3) keep in touch with those that I haven't talked to in a while.

So, here it is.

I should be doing enjoying my day right now, but right now, I just feel like sitting at home and vegging. I also have a ton of things to do and not enough time this week (especially since I'm going home this upcoming weekend), but I need a break.

What's been on my mind lately?

First of all, the election. I know that most Californians are disappointed about Prop 8. Honestly, I was surprised that it passed. Unlike most people, however, I am not going to tell my reader what to think about it. An election is just that -- an election. Your opinion is not necessarily better or worse than mine. Everyone gets ONE vote to exercise their opinions if they choose to do so. My opinion on voting is that one should only vote if they know the issues, and/or if they are educated enough to make a wise decision based on the information and their beliefs. As much as I may agree or disagree with someone regarding an issue, I prefer to try not to bias someone. Here are the facts, learn about the issue, and vote how you choose -- I am not going to hate you, break you down, and make you feel ashamed about your opinions. Everyone has the right to be disappointed/upset if the election doesn't turn out the way that they wanted to, but don't hate. Respect, people.

School is a huge part of my life, obviously. I'm not necessarily overwhelmed (yet!), but I'm constantly plagued by homesickness/SD-sickness. I'm thankful that I get to go home this upcoming weekend (my sister is getting married!), but I'm also stressed about that. Basically, my flight lands, I get ready for rehearsal and rehearsal dinner, and sleep so that I can spend the whole next day for the wedding itself. And then I come home on Sunday. After this nonstop onslaught of exams, papers, and other responsibilities, I just wanted a weekend to chill...but thank God for allowing the wedding to be AFTER all of my obligations :)

I'm also working in San Diego for a part of winter break. I can't wait to see people. Some others...I don't know where we stand at this point. It's funny how relationships change when you aren't there for two months. Out of sight, out of mind?

I have major mixed feelings about people. On one hand, I want to help the people around me as much as I can, if I can...but there comes a point when it just becomes a leechy, one-way type of relationship. I exist only when I am needed, and I am no longer a life form when I am no longer of use. Of course, I was bitter about this. I still am, but it is subsiding a lot more because I keep thinking about how sometimes, I have that type of relationship with God, where I just expect God to take care of everything for me (because He will), but I don't do my part to be the person that He wants me to be. I think one of my biggest problems is having a narrow heart and allowing people to annoy me when I should just relax, be nice, and not be so uptight about things. It's hard to be kind when other people are not so kind, but I shouldn't let those peoples' standards get in the way, right? :D

Did I mention that I am soooo thankful for all those wonderful people in my life? From the random phone calls or texts, to hugs, to the "let's go out today because you're having a bad day" -- everyone is wonderful and I am so blessed (and undeserving!) of the people that God put in my life.

I read the description for an ENFJ (my apparent Myers-Briggs personality type), and it was such a good description of me that it was a bit eerie. I wonder if those things apply well to everyone.

I'm excited for May to visit SF tomorrow, and for Jane's wedding! So busy...but as someone said to me once, I wouldn't have it any other way...